The other day I created this blog site and I was really excited. One because I had been trying to get one up and running without it being a complete mess since I was doing it myself. Funds do not allow me to outsource anything I’m doing at this time but god is good this is temporary. I was almost done and thought okay who can I call or ask to come over and look over my preview, you know to check context , pics, format etc….
I came up with nothing….please don’t get me wrong I have some very close friends. At least I consider them close, as close as we can be. Most of my friends are married with families and loads of responsibilities. It left me thinking are my local friends supportive? I’ve done several fashion shows, hosted several events, blog etc. and I can not name one of my local friends who I consider very close that have supported me.
Then I had to look at myself as the problem and look at myself as the solution. Yes I am ALWAYS doing something but who wants to be friends with someone who has so much potential and doesn’t use it? Am I supportive of them, I’m assuming so but you know what they say about assumptions. I attend parties for them some adult ,some children’s parties , I check in with them every time they are on my mind and I am the best listener.I may not always have a reply but I do listen. I treat their children as if they are mine. Financially they don’t need help and I couldn’t help in that area anyways. Ya’ll think I’m kidding check my website….free.
This left me with an ultimatum, do I completely cut my “friends” off… or do I have a chat with these women who I think besides the aforementioned I am lucky to have in my circle.
Let me end this by saying I am aware and okay with the fact that I am scattered, emotionally unavailable at times and often moody.I am also loving, I have a huge heart and I’m very considerate of others and their circumstances. That’s another reason I really appreciate my friends because I know I’m pretty much to deal with and they know it also but they accept me and my crazy and they aren’t perfect either but I think they are damn near close.